Start of something new

So today Matt and I saw our first condo to start the process of finding our own place. It definitely was not the place we are looking for, but for the first time I finally feel hopeful that we will buy our own place and have a happy change in our lives. I feel like in the past week I have found out more about buying a house than I ever knew my entirely life. The good thing is that we have the freedom to take our time, shop around for mortgages, save more money, and find the perfect place to start our lives together.

I also applied for 3 more jobs today and I feel like I just write the same cover letter and email every day! I have not received many responses from applications except for a couple saying I needed more experience. I have been getting depressed lately working the 1:30-10pm shift every night at a store I hate with managers and customers I absolutely can't stand. I just wish my hardest every day that someone will see me for the professional I am and give me a better paying job that I can actually stand! At first, once I graduated, I wasn't in a rush to find a new job because I had one that I could see Matt at, got paid decent, was close by my house, and I could stand who I worked with and what I did for the time being. One day this month, it just clicked that I don't deserve to be working there anymore and since then I have been trying my hardest to find anything better. It's all a lot of work to do, but I think I'm finally getting on the right track to find a better life for myself.

Day 19: Something you miss

I miss my childhood and not having a care in the world! I am sure that is what most people miss too, but I have had a job since I was 14 and ever since then have been so concerned with growing up and moving on. I wish I remembered more things from childhood, but there were so many good times that I remember, most of them being vacations. That's why I hope that in my life and in the future with my family, I make time to take a lot of vacations and show my kids all the fun things I got to enjoy when I was younger.

One thing I am glad I have access to is my family's house in Nh. I can picture taking my kids there for weekends and vacations to experience the same adventures and fun that I once had. I also take time now to make sure I take vacations and use my time off wisely, because sometimes time means more than money. I am so glad Matt and I took our first vacation to Las Vegas this year and we can't wait to take more in the future. I feel these times are priceless and we have to take advantage of every second we get.



My family apple picking way back when



A Day Off

So recently I have started on my search for a new job and looking at condos/apartments so I can finally make some sort of change in my life (and Matt's). I also started working 40+ hours at hannaford to try and save as much money as I can before we officially even find a place to live. I feel like I devote almost all my time to work and research, and frankly, it is exhausting. I have worked 6 days a week every week the past month or so except for my vacation (which I unfortunately did not get paid for due to idiotic mistakes by that awful company)

Looking for jobs and condos is way more difficult than I ever expected it to be, and I have not even got a call back for either, so I know the real work has not even started yet! It is sort of depressing working until 10pm every night and knowing that I have to do the same thing again the next day, with no promise for an end in sight just yet. I have a few people helping me on the condo search which I am so thankful for, because even though my parents said they would let us borrow some money for a down payment, they are not excited about us taking on so many bills with so little money. I honestly feel like I am doing everything I can and more to try and get out of my house, but it seems the more I try, the more exhausted I am with still no money!

I am not giving up hope anyways, I just wish my hardest every day that someday soon we will have more money saved, look at some condos we might be able to afford, and get a call back on a job opportunity. Pray for us! :]

9-11-01 always remember <3

Day 18: Favorite place to eat

Well, I am getting bored of this challenge that is taking me much longer than 30 days, but my favorite place to eat is probably Bertini's in Salem. I also love the Peppermill restaurant in Las Vegas, which I devoted a whole page in my scrapbook to :]  Some other places I go to often are fuji sushi and sylvan st. I am hoping to cut down a lot on the going out thing since it seems harder than I ever expected to save up money and move out!

Day 17: Something you're looking forward to

I am trying to catch up on my blog and finish this challenge! So, if you read this blog, you know that there are so many things in my life I am looking forward to, but really nothing is set in stone just yet.

In the immediate future, I am looking forward to going apple picking with Matt's family and then celebrating Halloween!

Every year we have a costume party at my house and I hope that it will be a great night. I am dressing up as Holly Madison this year. I also won a school girl costume from Bridget's contest, but I don't know if I will be wearing it. I love the fall especially since I don't have to go to school this year! This coming year is going to have many changes and I am actually pretty excited for something different! FINALLY!

Although I hate seeing summer come to a close, I do get excited knowing that this will be the time to spend more time with the families and keep the good times rolling, so I hope that lots of good things go on that I won't have to miss!



Matt and I, Halloween 2010



Day 16: Dream House

My dream house is not so much what it looks like on the outside as much as what I am going to put in it. One very important thing I will look for is a huge yard! You can build and fix up a house all you want, but you can't add a yard, and that is where I want to spend a lot of family summers someday just like I did when I was little. I have seen many houses that I would love to own around here, but have never gotten a picture of one. I know I want to stay around this area though. I decided I would google and find a house that I would picture myself in 10 years or so from now. This house is probably too big as I am used to living in a smaller house, but I do want more room than what my house has right now. I also LOVE the balcony on this one!

Right now, our current dream apartment is most likely in salem, in a two or three family house, that allows a dog and cat, off street parking, at a decent price :]  I took a few pictures of the apartment that a guy from work owns and may rent out to us in December. It is one of the few places I have found that will allow us to get a dog and it is really close to the willows! There is also a pool out back for the neighbors so I would hope to befriend someone and be allowed in it :] Hopefully it is nice inside too!



I took a pic of the apt when we went by it a couple months ago, we would get the bottom floor and there is a family in a townhouse up top.

 

Also took a picture of the driveway that leads to a nice little parking lot out back



Day 15: Bible Verse

I have been ignoring my blog over the past week or so since matt was on vacation, I kind of took one away from the computer and working out :[  gotta get back into the swing of things!

I was not looking forward to this day of the challenge because I am not religious in the slightest. I only received communion and am not confirmed, rarely set foot inside a church, and I do not plan on getting married in a church either. I just find the whole religion thing not suitable for me, but I decided to google a verse that I would like.

"Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. " 1 Timothy 4:12

Every time I am around people slightly older than me that have moved out on their own, gotten married, etc. I feel somewhat intimidated. I just have to remember that I am doing well for my age and need to remain focused on my goals in order to stay motivated and move on with my life.